Kufr

Drawing pictures of kufr

Q: I had an art project on the Mexican day of the dead festival and painted canvases that I think are haram. I painted two girls and one of them represented life and the other one represented death. One of them was with glowing eyes and I wrote in my art book that it shows birth and that she has life in her or something like that. The other one had two hands reaching out to her and I painted this because in the Mexican day of the dead festival they call out to spirits which is shirk. I also wrote that she could be depicted as a soul keeper but I didn't know about shirk at the time and I think about what I did until recently I realised how bad this is.

I even wrote stuff like these girls are like guardians of heaven and earth like a metaphor but I didn't believe in any of this. I also wrote how one of the girls in the canvas her soul is either going back to her too it was for my art project and I did it last year but I found my art book and these canvases and I ripped them up. I have one more canvas left and this canvas I named it "spirit lurer" which I don't know if this is shirk or not? If it is shirk, shall I get rid of the canvas or is it allowed to be painted over the skulls of the painting and what if I leave the face of the girl on there and turn the painting into a girl in a jungle and not holding the skull? Because the canvas is still linked to day of the dead but what if I get rid of the day of the dead element? I got rid of the other two canvases of the girls but this canvas i didn't get rid of yet because i didn't think it was shirk since i only named it "spirit lurer" but i thought maybe i can change the name of the painting. in the painting its only of a girl holding a skull unlike the other paintings.

Accepting literature of different religions

Q: I live in the west, and every now and then, some Christian or Jew knocks on the door to give out pamphlets that promote their religion or an event related to their religion. I normally refuse the pamphlet but sometimes they put it in my hand, in which case I say ok and throw it out after I close the door. The people who give this stuff to me know I am a Muslim as I wear the niqab. Does my taking the pamphlet constitute kufr? Am I obliged to refute their religion to them right then and there at the door? If I don't, is that kufr?

Deleting a recording of an incorrect statement one made

Q: If someone did a radio play for university coursework and their character in the script said an utterance of shirk, for example if they said "christ" and they recorded this, does that mean the sin is there and even if I deleted the recordings but there might be a file somewhere.

I knew it was wrong but I thought because its a character and I'm speaking the lines of that so it doesn't matter too much. Then I remembered how bad it was and the fact that it was part of the radio play. Now I'm trying to delete the recordings and finding out if it's anywhere else on my laptop. I deleted them and edited it out of the radio play but I am still stressed. Its because its recorded and I feel like if the cache or bit of the recording is still in the computer somewhere then is it still shirk?

Thoughts of kufr

Q: I live in Iran and I have problem with my life. Sometimes when I am playing games or prayer I always say bad words at Allah in my heart. I don't know what's wrong with me and I don't want to say things like that but it always happens... I'm scared because I am feeling like I'm a kafir by saying bad words at Allah. What should I do now? Am I a kafir?

Fear of husband making kufr statements

Q: My husband is depressed because he is with his father in his buisness and his father does some haraam dealings. He doesnt want to be left with the haraam business after his father dies but doesnt know what else to do. In a depressing state about the situation he made comments such as:

This is a lesson I dont deserve

Theres no hope, I'm forced into doing wrong

I'm not a bad person

And a few others where he is basically saying that he doesn't deserve what he is getting. Is the above comments kufar?