Suicide

Premarital relationship and thoughts of suicide

Q: I am 24 years old and by birth a non Muslim but had relations with a Muslim boy for over 5 1/2 years. We have been planning to get married after my convertion. I believe in Allah. For these 5 1/2 years l lived like a Muslim girl. I know that both my parents will not accept us easily but I thought that his parents would support me more than mine. I tried alot. He told me to take a loan and join for the msc and in 2 years time we would get married. I listened to him and completed my msc. He promised to marry me. I did things with him because he told me that we will make everything halal after getting married. I gave him everything but I am still a virgin. Few months ago, his parents found about us and they changed him. He got married to another girl and started to a new life. He forgot about everything. He hides from me and his friends. Allah also supported and saved him. I prayed alot but Allah didnt hear my prayer. Perhaps it is because I was born a non Muslim girl. I believe and pray alot to Allah. I told his parents that I believe in Allah Amd I like to live like a Muslim girl. I asked them to please give me a chance to be a good Muslim girl. But they did not accept. Allah did not answer my duas. This boy dropped me at the last second and he told "What I did will not gave you a child so forget what happened between us and live your life with someone else. My mother does not accept you and I cant disobey my mother." I know that a mother is a great gift of Allah and Allah told us not to make your mother sad. I can also give birth to a child then I will become a mother. Why does he not think about that. He did also made a mistake and cheated on me. Why Allah is not punishing him? He used me and me and left me. I am so heart broken and feel betrayed because he used me so much. I have been crying and praying to Allah. I begged every one to please help me to become a good Muslim girl but nobody helped me. At last I'm having thoughts of committing suicide. I know that it is harram in Islam. But I dont have any athor option. He touched my body with the promise that he will marry me. I told him that its was bad thing and we are not married. I am still a virgin but my body is also important to me. I lost everything but he gets a good life. Now l prayed to Allah to take my life back. I dont want to live. If I live, I dont want to be cheated by another boy. If I tell this thing to anyone then nobody will want to marry me. What must I do?

Contemplating suicide

Q: I've suffered from depression, and I've realized I am still depressed. I am 19 and I live in Spain. All my friends and the other teens I know spend the summer in the swimming pool, in the beach and traveling (my brother who is 18 too), but I can't. Because I am a Muslim, I can't wear bikini so I can't spend time with them in the sea, and what's more I can't swim (which is my favourite hobby). Since I've had the period, I've spent every summer alone in my bedroom dreaming about going to swim with my friends. I love Islam but I want to wear a bikini, swim with my friends and spend the night with them as well. I am unhappy now. I've thought about doing it, but I can't because my parents are going to realize it since my skin will get darker if I do it. And I can't ask them If I can do this, because for a Muslim, that will be one of the worst things ever for a father to let his daughter wear inmodest clothes. I am a good person, I study at college and I've never hurt anyone. The last year I tried to commit suicide, but I decided to wait and I've realized the wait wasn't worth it. I know this is the last summer I am going to be here because I've decided to commit suicide to stop the pain I am feeling every day. Every teen is enjoying the summer, while I am spending it crying and I am tired of it. I just wanted to ask you what you think, can a Muslim girl wear a bikini in this situation (if she doesn't wear it she could commit suicide)? Thanks and sorry for explaining my life.

Soul of a person who committed suicide roaming the earth

Q: Is there any ruling that someone who committed suicide or accidental brutal death or anyone purposely killed him either ways, so their soul is roaming that place and makes hurdles to the passers and if it likes someone, it possesses the body. As this is a worldly talking that a person is been killed or died in accident or suicide...and he later possessed someones body....and troubles....so is this correct.... 

Suicide

Q: I was forced for a marriage, I never wanted to marry this man. So I consumed 120 sleeping pills. Unfortunately I did not die but due to the effect of the medicines I was not fully conscious. Under the influence of medicines my nikaah took place. I do not remember any single event of that day. Is my nikaah valid?