Q: I am being constantly faced with lots if wasaawis. I am not able to deal with it. I am thinking about almost each thought that passes my mind whether that thought did not constitute kufr. Due to this I am reciting shahadah again and again thinking I might have done kufr. I have read that we should ignore these thoughts...but I am not able to do it. I read lots of books by Maulana Ashraf Ali Thanvi Sahab, Maulana Zakariyya rahimahullah, etc. Alhumdulillah the books had great influence over me, and alhumdulillah I am striving hard to practise complete deen in my life. I have changed a lot. So, I have read about wasaawis in many books. But I am not able to ignore them... my health is also being affected due to the constant stress, thinking and the hard pressure which I put on my mind in order to think what I thought. I am in search of a shaikh also to do my tazkiya and also to guide me... but since I am a woman and also no one in the family is related to tasawwuf, I have not yet accomplished this. So my question is:
1. Please explain to me practically how to ignore the wasaawis. Do I have to obstruct them or let them pass in my mind?
2. Can you also say some other things such as muraaqaba etc. that will help me and also to ease and calm my mind.
3. Can I do baiyat with you? If not, can you guide me towards a shaikh?
4. Lastly, I need ur precious duas.