Q: My situation is a bit confusing and embarrassing.

I married a man who I dearly love and who loves me. However during our marriage we fought quite a bit, I think it was because we were rececenlty married and because I came from a family of all girls with no father in my life and he came from a family of all boys. I think marriage was a shock. Deen was a big factor in our lives alhamdulillah. Unfortunately my husband divorced me 3 times. After the third time and our separation he regretted it unbearably. I missed him very much and realised all the silly things I had done and got angry about during our marriage. 

I then did halala, I know it's immoral hence embarrassed telling you. I didn't tell my husband or anyone else no one knows until this day. When I married I did not mention anything about halala at the time of the nikah and even before hardly except that the man knew I missed my husband and just wanted to back home to him. I can't remember I I mentioned that I might want divorce, but if I did it was definitely not at the time of nikah. This man never told me he was marrying me to give me back though, deep down I knew. I feel that this part of the nikah was valid. My concern is with the fact that he didn't match me in kuf and I had no wali present. I am a covered girl and my family quit pious and this man seemed religious however I found out he goes to mixed wedding etc, he is Lebanese so I assume there isn't much segregation between cousins and inlaws. There were two witnesses and a man that I chose to be my wakeel at the nikah. There was ijaab and qubool.

(Question 1) Was this valid even though he didn't match me in kuf? I asked one scholar here who said it's valid even without kuf, then I got paranoid and wanted confirmation so I asked another and he said it is invalid. I  am so confused because if it is invalid then my current nikah with my husband is also invalid. 

After my Iddah I am now back with my first husband and we are soo happy and getting along very well MashaAllah. I honestly feel like I have married another man when it comes to understanding and caring etc and I feel like I have changed too in a good way. I am also now preganant. 

My question is, (question 2) why has Allah blessed me and continued to bless me after such an immoral act I have done? It keeps me from doing extra amaal because I feel like I have deceived Islam too and am living in a haram way but Allah has blessed me and husband with happiness , (question 3) should I feel guilty about the halala for ever? Or should I let go? (Question 4) should I leave my husband because I did halala to get with him? I'm so confused and feel horrible for my bad deeds (question 5) do I still get reward for serving my husband etc even though unmarried him by doing halala?

Q: I am lecturer in physics at a govt college. In 2007 I got married and yet I remained unable to have intercourse. I have a problem of erection and discharging early. At the first night my wife was not willing to have intercourse then on her will I did not have intercourse. For many days we do oral and upper sex with each other but my wife was not willing to do intercourse and I also left it. But after 3 months we tried for intercourse but my wife got frightened and I also did not get a full erection to insert inside and discharge before inserting. This thing is going on for the next 5 months and I remained unable to do intercourse. Then I decided to take medicine and have different treatments but got no success and remained unable to insert and to get full erection and discharge early. I asked my wife to take a divorce from me as I am not able to fulfill her sex requirements but she said that she want to live with me and have treatment done. I make many attempts to do intercourse but remained unable and also take different medicines. Before marriage I never know that I have that problem otherwise I will never get marriage. Now I am in deep depression as I feel that I destroyed the life of my wife and I am committing the sin and she is not willing to take divorce but she got frustrated when I remained unable to do intercourse. Now 10 years are passed and if she now takes divorce where she will go?

Kindly help me and tell me that is my nikkah or marriage is valid?

Secondly what is the ruling of Islam for couple like us, what we should do? We are in deep trouble and depressed. My wife want to live with me and want to do intercourse with me and she has emotional attachment with me. Is it possible that I can be able to do intercourse and be able to satisfy me wife? I am in deep trouble, kindly help me to overcome this problem. 

Q: I am an unmarried girls of 32 yrs age. I am not getting any good match.  One person wants to get married to me as his 2nd wife. My mother is denying to do so. What shall I do.

Q: I am very concerned about my marriage and I need help. I have been married for 5 months now and my husband has not consummated our marriage. Although, he is intimate in other ways and treats me well. I am very disturbed and embarassed to talk to him about the issue. I wanted to know how should I deal with it.

Q: In Islam, is it acceptable for a man to work as a midwife?

Q: Can the groom go in the hall full of ladies after his nikah where no other males were allowed? Can he sit on the stage with his bride in front of all the ladies?

Q: I'm 27 years old.  I had two abortions under some circumstances which were absolutely sin and I keep asking forgiveness from Allah for it. Now, I'm married and have one baby girl of 3 years old and we want to have another baby but it's not happening anymore. I am starting to get into depression as I'm scared that this is the punishment from Allah.

I have come to a conclusion that everybody has a number of kids allotted from Allah but since I have aborted two babies and I got one so now I may not have any baby in my life anymore, is this thought correct?  But honestly when I had this baby girl the only thing I thought is that may be Allah forgave me that's why he blessed us with his most precious gift - a girl. 

Is there any kaffarra for these sins and that Allah bless me with more kids?

Q: What does the name Zameeruddeen mean, how do you write the name in Arabic?

Q: If I made a promise to Allah Ta'ala that, if I was to be cured from this illness, I would never do a particular sin again. However when you get better you fall into that type of sin again.

Now does this mean I will be included in the verse of surah tawbah verse 75-77 who Allah Ta'ala punished with hypocrisy as a result of breaking a promise with Allah Almighty. I am really worried that I  am going to be punished with hypocrisy and die a hypocrite.

Q: I have been paying taxes for 5 years close to 1200 to 1400 dollars a Month.

I got laid off and now im taking social services until I find a job because I had no savings. I get about 780 a month. I gave them my friends basement address but I live with my parents. My friend even signed the letter. The thing is the amount I get for rent, is that halaal for me or do I have to make my friend make intention of it being a girl?