Feeling depressed
Q: I'm feeling a bit depressed right now. I realized I have been committing a sin called eaves dropping a lot and I had forgotten about it during this whole time. I also have done a lot of looking inside of other peoples houses not on purpose though. I feel very depressed and I know that you can't lose hope in Allah but I'm already at the stage when you do durood that you get cursed back (I feel worse when I do durood). What am I supposed to do when a lot of these things are not repairable. (I don't remember everyone that I have done this to). I am also in a difficulty where I am not being able to do Salaah,(mental disability called psychosis). I have black magic being done on me all the time. My is mind and my knowledge is getting messed up and rectification is extremely difficult.