Q: I suffer from this type of ocd called scrupulosity. This often makes me have obsessive guilt. I fear that I have made the wrong choice on some islamic controversial issues and disagreements among the scholars such as music and other disagreements scholars have disagreements on. For example, for music I follow the opinion that music is permissible as long as if doesn't contain bad words and sexual content or provokes lustful desires. After researching the hadiths and reading different opinions I felt happy and confident with my choice. The waswas came and has made feel doubt. Not just on this issue but others as well. I fear that I have made the wrong choice and that I'll go to hell for it. I became so obsessed about thinking about my decision. Why does shaitan put this doubt in me and cause me anxiety. What if I make the wrong choice and side with the wrong scholars, will I be put to hell and punished by God? How can I feel confident on my choice without feeling doubt and obsessive guilt?
A: Islam is easy and it is we who create complications for ourselves. Follow just one aalim who you feel confident about his knowledge, experience and righteousness.
And Allah Ta'ala (الله تعالى) knows best.
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