Q: I have been experiencing alot of difficulties in life over the years and just can't be happy despite trying many things to remove the difficulties. I am always sad and depressed.
Many years ago around the time my problems started, I read a book about some of the pious people of the past. In it there was a narration about a well known pious person being seen in a dream by someone after he passed away. The person asked this pious person about his condition in the hereafter. The pious person said that Allah granted him a place in Jannat near the Sidratul Muntaha because he was always in the state of huzn. Immediately I made dua "Oh Allah, keep me also in the state of huzn and grant me also a place in Jannat near Sidratul Muntaha" without even knowing what huzn means. Some time after this I remembered this dua and found out what it means.
1. Could it be because of this dua I made out of ignorance that I am always depressed and having problems in my life?
2. If it is because of this dua, what do I do now to put an end to my problems and constant state of huzn?