Allah Ta'ala

Q: I am an Egyptian girl, 16 years old and I was born a Muslim in a Muslim household. I’ve always believed in Allah and prayed. I never had any doubts towards the existence of God because I was born a Muslim and my parents taught me from a young age, since I was born, therefore I had no option but to believe, of course like any other born Muslim kid.

I didn’t know anything about other religions and the possibility of existence of atheists except in ancient times as I learned at school etc. like any typical child. I was like “OF COURSE THERE IS ALLAH.” I was happy, I prayed, everything was ok untill a month ago. I started diving deep on the internet, after I had bad thoughts like “how is there a God... does God really exist?’ etc.

I fell into a state of depression, gradually. I didnt sleep, I didnt eat, I lost weight and I got sick and I had to tell my mom to help me because I can't tell anyone else such a thing. She kept telling me “Its the Shaitan, and stuff like that... and we watched videos together to make me feel better.

I became slightly better after overthinking all the time to thinking less. I was always afraid, but now I feel empty. Im so afraid that I feel like I surrendered to my thoughts. I need guidance again, I just want my strong faith back... What do I do? Please help me.

Q: When we say Allah ki Raza and Allah ka Ghussa what does that mean? I read that Allah doesn’t not experience emotions like humans so when we say of a quality of Allah that resembles humans, we take the end result as it’s meaning.

For example Mercy of Allah means Allah’s Favor. So please explain Raza and Ghussa in this context.

Q: I am feeling down these past couple of days. I know loving a person more than Allah is shirk. How does one know that he loves Allah more than anyone else? When a person is far from religion and doesn’t remember Allah, does it mean he doesn’t love Allah?

Q: Is it correct that the only thing that’s common between the attributes of Allah is being Qadeem? Like when we say the words of Allah are perfect, but Allah himself is more perfect than any of his attributes?

Q: Is وحید the name of Allah Ta'ala?

Q: I sometimes think how Allah Ta'ala will be and where he is. Is thinking about Allah in this way shirk? I am not talking about His origin but I am talking about his presence and knowing Him.

Q: Can Allah talk to us directly?

What if someone is claiming that Allah is talking to them? They are also saying that the angels are explaining the tafseer while they are reading it. They also say that sometimes jinn talk to them and they can clearly distinguish who is talking to them. 

Q: If you get tears when you think positively about Allah or you get tears out love for Allah, is that good thing or sign of iman? I know people get tears when they fear Allah, what about when you get tears when you love Allah?

Q: A thought comes to me that we worship Allah’s zaat, do we worship his attributes as well? 

Q: I read this somewhere:

Also, As-Suddi said, "When a man would come to the two angels they would advise him, `Do not fall into disbelief. We are a test.' When the man would ignore their advice, they would say, `Go to that pile of ashes and urinate on it.' When he would urinate on the ashes, a light, meaning the light of faith, would depart from him and would shine until it entered heaven. Then something black that appeared to be smoke would descend and enter his ears and the rest of his body, and this is Allah's anger. Isn’t Allah’s Anger His Attribute alone so how would it enter a human being?