Watching videos
Q: I have a mental disability where I experience uncontrollable behaviour and actions. I some times watch videos online on youtube.com against my will and watch videos that are posted from sources where you had to pay in order to watch them. I have no idea if the person that posted the videos had asked for consent from the correct people in order to post the videos online due to the rights of the videos not belonging to them. When I watch the videos, I try to do every physical and mental thing that Allah allows me to do but sometimes I space out and my mind starts watching them instead of looking away. I sometimes experience my intentions going all over the place and sometimes I literally forget what I am doing or what intention I am doing for. I sometimes watch these videos not willingly and then sometimes I forget and I feel that "heart bump" when you sin. My question is did I steal and what can I do about this situation. I have symptoms of epilepsy.