Being involved in a haraam relationship
Q: I am a 37 year old woman and have been married for 18 years. I am not happy in my marriage and due to this I have pushed away my husband. We both live in one house like complete strangers. This has led me to have a relationship out of my marriage! I know this is gunaah but I have been with this man who I love dearly. I am stuck and feel very guilty for all that's happened but I can't leave this man. I feel I will die without him. This man has now married in my family with a close relative and says he will never leave me, but I know as well as you this is impossible. I feel stuck, hurt and upset. Please guide me. What should I do as I do not have any will power to walk away. I feel lost.