Contemplating suicide due to problems with one's parents

Q: I was in love with a guy about 8 years ago. We were in a relationship for 4 years and then when we broke up, me and my family left UAE and came to Japan. The reason I broke up with him was that my cousin told my mom that your daughter is in love with someone so my mom said a lot of bad words to me.

After that everything changed in my life. I left that guy because I didn’t want to hurt my mom. I promise that I never met my that guy. I only chatted with him. But now my mom and dad hate me alot. It has been 4 years since we came to Japan and my dad never talks to me nicely. My mom says that I am napak. I swear I have never done anything wrong with him. I know my limits. I told my mom that we can go to a hospital and do a checkup and I can prove that I'm a pure virgin. I'm soo tired I just wanna kill my self. I attempted suicide many times but I always failed. I know its haram in Islam but it hurts me when my mom and dad does this to me.

After we broke up he got married and he is living a happy life with his wife and he has a baby boy. I'm suffering alot.  Is there any wazeefa that I can get married or any wazeefa by which my family will understand me? 

A: Don't think of dying unnecessarily. Who knows that your remorse and the hurt that you go through is so much loved by Allah Ta`ala that this may be more loved in His sight than a million lives.

Read the following seven times after every salaah: "Rabbi innee limaa anzalta ilayya min khayrin faqeer."

And Allah Ta'ala (الله تعالى) knows best.

 

Answered by:

Mufti Ebrahim Salejee (Isipingo Beach)