Not becoming dispondent
Q: When I was a student of standard 9, I failed in exams and my dad told me to give private exams of standard 10 and I told him that I did'nt want to give exams. I don't know how I told him. After 1 year I wanted to give a private exam and I submitted the form also and I was studying all out. But at the end I gave my maths textbook to my friend and she didn't give me so I passed in all subjects but I failed in Maths. I feel very guilty and however my dad is always expectant of me whenever I am in trouble in trouble. So my dad told me to give a retest of maths and I studied and unfortunately I failed again. And didn't get admission in any collage.
Please help I want to study and more and more but I can't. I love my parents very much. And my parents had 4 daughters and no son so I want to raise my parents name. I finished Quran shareef 4 times and I am trying to finish more. Is there any way?