Dating
Q: I have a problem and it's hard. I really can not handle this feeling anymore. I really try to focus on salaat and dikr. But it is not enough. I have no one to talk to besides Allah Ta'ala. I want to get married and I even tried muslim dating sites. After some emails I met someone he told me that he wants to come home. I told my mother after couple days. He said I could never be his wife but he liked me and he wanted to date me more. I didn't do anything with him so I got scared and broke the contact with him. It was the little hope I had that was destroyed and I feel angry and sad and stupid. My father is in bad health he can't search for me and my brothers also can't because they dont have the time. So I am forced (thats what i feel) to date men only with the intention to get married. But they want other things and I can't do that. Am I weird not wanting sex. They call me old fashioned And they say they dont trust me because I am almost 31. I just can't take this anymore. I don't have someone I can ask for advise. Please give me yours. I don't want anything just some advice because I don't know why I am here and why I feel so much pain. It really kills me inside. I want to end this. I know these days are hard to do things in a halaal way but when halaal is really hard I am afraid I will do haraam.