Q: I've suffered from depression, and I've realized I am still depressed. I am 19 and I live in Spain. All my friends and the other teens I know spend the summer in the swimming pool, in the beach and traveling (my brother who is 18 too), but I can't. Because I am a Muslim, I can't wear bikini so I can't spend time with them in the sea, and what's more I can't swim (which is my favourite hobby). Since I've had the period, I've spent every summer alone in my bedroom dreaming about going to swim with my friends. I love Islam but I want to wear a bikini, swim with my friends and spend the night with them as well. I am unhappy now. I've thought about doing it, but I can't because my parents are going to realize it since my skin will get darker if I do it. And I can't ask them If I can do this, because for a Muslim, that will be one of the worst things ever for a father to let his daughter wear inmodest clothes. I am a good person, I study at college and I've never hurt anyone. The last year I tried to commit suicide, but I decided to wait and I've realized the wait wasn't worth it. I know this is the last summer I am going to be here because I've decided to commit suicide to stop the pain I am feeling every day. Every teen is enjoying the summer, while I am spending it crying and I am tired of it. I just wanted to ask you what you think, can a Muslim girl wear a bikini in this situation (if she doesn't wear it she could commit suicide)? Thanks and sorry for explaining my life.