Reuniting after divorce
Q: I converted to Islam and have been married for 15 years with my husband and two sons. Arrival to the problem. My husband has never been a very practising Muslim all these years and I must say I made life very simple. Saw repeated betrayals by me always forgiven for the sake of the family. Only in the past three years the situation has worsened with requests from him of sexual practises prohibited in Islam even in all morality. Whereupon I set him to see if he could without me to find the right path. So it was in fact I ask him to give me irrevocable repudiation instantly (while loving him yet). I didn't know anything about divorce in Islam but I though that this was the only way that he will change. He did not wish to give but at last he gave. I forced him to give me under threat. I unfortunately wasn't aware of the consequences of this thing because nobody told about divorce in Islam. Now only a few months after I realized that I really love him. It is my intent to get back. I would now like to come back together also for our children but as I said, unfortunately I do not know if we can. There are differing opinions. Some say that just a marriage with another person and divorce right away but others say I should even consummate this marriage (that is for me much difficult because I love and have always loved my husband and I would never think to betray him). Because having my good intent should I lose so cruelly. Please help me?