Aqaaid

Doubting the existence of Allah Ta'ala

Q: I am an Egyptian girl, 16 years old and I was born a Muslim in a Muslim household. I’ve always believed in Allah and prayed. I never had any doubts towards the existence of God because I was born a Muslim and my parents taught me from a young age, since I was born, therefore I had no option but to believe, of course like any other born Muslim kid.

I didn’t know anything about other religions and the possibility of existence of atheists except in ancient times as I learned at school etc. like any typical child. I was like “OF COURSE THERE IS ALLAH.” I was happy, I prayed, everything was ok untill a month ago. I started diving deep on the internet, after I had bad thoughts like “how is there a God... does God really exist?’ etc.

I fell into a state of depression, gradually. I didnt sleep, I didnt eat, I lost weight and I got sick and I had to tell my mom to help me because I can't tell anyone else such a thing. She kept telling me “Its the Shaitan, and stuff like that... and we watched videos together to make me feel better.

I became slightly better after overthinking all the time to thinking less. I was always afraid, but now I feel empty. Im so afraid that I feel like I surrendered to my thoughts. I need guidance again, I just want my strong faith back... What do I do? Please help me.

Being forced to attend a khatam

Q: My family has a katham every year, the changing of the flags. I know it's not as per the Prophet (sallallahu alaihi wasallam) teachings, and it's innovation. But I'm forced to do it, as I will get shouted at.

Please advise, am I sinning if I do the katham? I tried to refuse previously and I got swearing. They don't understand it's not as per the sunnah and I'm living under their roof. So I'm basically forced to do it. What do I do?

Bad luck

Q: After my coming to my husband's house, his condition is getting bad. He got sick, he became bad looking, his father's business got hampered, his car is getting ruined from many parts. I cursed him many times that he should be destroyed. Is it because of this? Or I am just a bad luck? Because even before, once I went with him somewhere and everything was getting wrong. Should I leave him? Because I want him to be happy. What should I do ? This is not only my negative thinking. This is very clear that bad luck is after him right after our marriage. I can not take it anymore. Is there something like bad luck? Am I a bad luck? 

Will a person become a kaafir by jokingly saying "you can lie"

Q: I’d like to ask if the following constitutes kufr?

In the morning, I asked my brother that did you pray Fajr? He said yes. Then later in the morning he told me ‘ I only said yes to make you happy so you wouldn’t pester me’ Then I said ‘ you can’t lie (even for a joke)’ whereupon he said ‘why not?’

Did he commit kufr by saying jokingly ‘you can lie’? Then later he said he did actually pray Fajr but he ‘joked’ to me that he didn’t pray it.

Losing one's wedding ring

Q: I am a married Muslim woman. I have lost my ring which I got as a gift on my nikaah from my husband just like an engagement ring for which I am very upset but people around me told us that losing your nikaah ring isn't a good sign for married life.

I am very much tensed and I wish that this is just a rumor, nothing else. Please tell me about it in the light of islam.