Imaan

Referring to Allah Ta'ala by saying bhagwaan

Q: One day I said Allah apke pese dilade… bhagwan apke pese dilade…

Although bhagwan is the word that Hindu's use for their God, but I said it just like that and to show Hindus that Muslims are not extremists and for brotherhood and soldiarity with them as banks ran out of money and collapased.

What is the ruling regarding it? Did I do something wrong and is it kufr? My intention was never to say bhagwan means Allah

New Muslim practicing Islam secretly

Q: I reverted to Islam around 2 and a half years ago alhamdulillah but only my mother and a few people know about it and they dont approve at all. I've prayed and made dua for them to finally accept it and allow me to be Muslim but it hasn't worked. I cant pray, read the Quraan, or eat what I'm supposed to so I dont know what to do or how to have Allah to help me.

Does this mean it's not meant to be or am I doing something wrong? Is there a specific dua I can make to get help?