Stray thoughts

Q: I have a problem, a big problem. Inside my head/heart I always have a whisper that is very wrong if said using my mouth. The whisper is like it is easier if we don't need to do ghusl like others, whisper like ghusl is a burden. It happens in my head. Afterwards, I quickly do istighfar and say Lailaha ilallah muhammadur Rasulullah. I am afraid. I know its very wrong if I said that with my mouth and can be kufr.

Not having any inclination towards the girl one's parents have chosen for one

Q: I'll try to keep this short and sweet. My family is originally from Pakistan and very cultural. My parents are currently trying to get me married as well. My mother claims that she performed Istikhara a year ago for a marriage proposal to her sisters daughter and had a dream where she was at their house celebrating. I on the other hand feel very uncomfortable with this relationship and prefer another woman that I have brought to my moms attention as well. On one hand I can go with my choice and disappoint my parents, or I can go with their choice and regret it myself. Do you have any guidance in the issue?

Whispers of Shaitaan

Q: I gave two goats for my sons Aqiqa. When the first goat was slaughtered I was ok while when the second one was being slaughtered my inner voice was saying that this Aqiqa should not be accepted by Allah. I am really in a problem and doubt as I don't know whether the Aqiqa of my son would be accepted by Allah. Please advise.