Q: I have been in a relationship with this girl for years. In the past she betrayed me, lied to many times but eventually within time she changed and I decided to get engaged. We did get engaged and after the engagement I keet remembering what she did to me in the past and I can't forget all that she lied to me saying that her parents are dead. But within time she changed alot and for 4 years she didn't lie to me at all.
Now I started cheating on her and then I fell in love with a girl and all of sudden I stopped everything, talking to girls and all other things. I really want to get married to this girl and not my finace. I asked her to break up with me as in the future I might not be a good husband but she keeps repeating the same thing that shes not going to live without me and cries asking me to fix things.
Even if I fix things up, I I know I can never love her and make her happy. This new girl understands me very well and shes my childhood family friend and we always shared a very good understanding and trying to think of a halaal way to get together as in getting married.