Disobeying Allah due to not having things the way one wanted
Q: I'm in a difficult situation that I can't solve. I have made dua for 2 years. Since I am now hard-hearted and hateful toward the deen, I have decided to stop practicing on June 27th (in 18 days). I am messaging you because I don't want to do this but the burden is too great, and by Allah not helping me the way and time I want, I want to spend my life disobeying Him so I can enter the Hellfire and receive my punishment.