Doubts and stray thoughts
Q:
1. I am having lots lots of bad thought So bad i dnt feel like saying it. I get bad thought about Allah The Holy Quraan Islaam sometime Prophet. What to do. Sooo bad thought n i just try to move away the thought but i feel sometimes they r soo near to my mouth then i think have i said anything about Kufr.
2. As far as i think i try not to say it verbally but sometimes my head get fill with sooo much bad thought n it feels like i have said it. I get sooo bad thought about Allah Quraan What to do then i think if my nikaah is valid if am sleeping with my husband if its halaal.
3. I try my best to be a better Muslimah every day. Now i give saadqah like $1 Some times more now sometime say i want to buy something i have$20 n i havr Change n my mind say put saadqah n i dont put would i be sinful. Sometime i take out money to save n something say put it saadqah so if o dnt put im sinful n if i used to money for my stuff is i wrong? I do put money in Saadqah but sometimes when i pick up a bigger note my mind say put that in saadqah if i dnt put am i wrong?
4. I have these problem with getting thought as i say now something in mind say make this oath i dont want to make oath because i u break oath u have to give kaffarah. . Now in my heart n mind comes make this oath n i dnt say it verbally does it count? Sometimes the whole sentence for oath runs in heart n mind but i try not to say it does it count
5. Iif u think of oath does it count
6. If i make intention to give away clothes or items in charity can i changed my mind after n take back the stuff once o haven't given on charity?
7. In my mind comes il put this clothes for saadqah n then i change my mind can i take back.
8. If i want to give a gift to a friend i take out gift to give to her n then change mind for someone else is it permissible
9. If i want to give my friend cousion or family gift say jewellery clothes shoes n they where it would i be sinful if they were it n sometimes if nahmahram c them.
10. If i give perfume to someone n they wear it n men smell it would i be sinful
11. Somethings my mind say give this in saadqa charity n i dnt give n i used myself would i be wrong?
12. If i say this thing is haraam on me would it become haraam on me to used it.
13. I get thought in my mind to say that this is haraam on me. N i dnt say it but sometimes it seems so near in mouth then i think have i said it.
14. The other day something came in mind n tell me say ur husband is haraam for u forever i didn't say it but it came as the sentence in mind if i said it does my husband become haraam for me?
15. My mind tells me so much thing about oaths thoughts bad things sometime things u should not say about someone that it would mean slandering my mind plays alot of things.
16. How can i overcome all of these thought ? I dnt want to make oaths but they come i dnt want to say thing that are permissible haraam but the come what to do?
17. Another question in mind its not permissible to do vidoes n picture that what we know so we try to avoid. Now when we lookon youtube you c moulana Taariq Jameel bayaan on videos hes a very big ulama we respect him and u havr many other religious scholars some who are on vidoes n picture now what is the ruling now i dnt want to say something wrong im scared supposed is kufr?
They r ulamas n they r way higher in knowledge than me i respect them i am happy to hear their bayaans but a thought was bothering me about the video n picture now i tell my self i dnt no what their intention is they r spreading the knowledge of deen.
Now i was reading fatwas below
http://islamqa.org/hanafi/mufti-online/21759
So when i read the hadith about the picture makers does that include videos When i listen to the ulama bayaans i get bad thought bout them which i dnt wany. May Allah grant us all Jannah They r pious respected Ulamas they have more knowledge than me. But when i c their videos i get these ad thought about them what to do.
http://islamqa.org/hanafi/mufti-online/21759 Copy n paste link.
Please help me please my mind have very bad thoughts Abdullah Ibn Masood (Radiyallaahu Anhu) narrates that the Messenger (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) said, “The people who will receive the worst punishment in the sight of Allah will be those who make pictures.” (Bukhari and Muslim)
Aisha (Radiyallaahu Anha) narrates that once the Messenger (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) entered (her house) while there was a curtain with pictures in the house. (Upon seeing it) his face changed and he removed the curtain. He then said, “The people who will receive the worst punishment on the day of judgement will be those who make these pictures.” (Bukhari)
Ibn Abbas (Radiyallaahu Anhu) narrates that he heard Messenger (sallallaahu alaihi wa sallam) saying, “Everyone who makes pictures will be in Hellfire. A creature will be created for every picture that he made. It (the creature) will then punish him in Hellfire.” (Bukhari and Muslim)
When i watch the videos on bayaan then these hadith play in my mind. I dont want to think bad bout the scholars that does video bayaan but these hadith comes n bad image about the scholars come Now Allah can forgive any one I Dnt no about myself cuz i myself trying to avoid pictures on phone as well trying to become a better muslim May Allah forgive me as well. Pleasr please help me Muslimah sister I worry about nikaah n if i said anything on kufr or shirk.