Trust in Allah Ta'ala

Q: I am an engineer and jobless for 2 years since my graduation. I have given so many interviews and tests for job but had no luck. Now mostly I am in deep depression and I also don't have my mother as she is no more to whom I could share my feelings. I blame Allah for my destroyed life and I pray to Allah to give me death. I heard a Hadith about Allah loves the human beings 70 times a mother, which I truly & strongly believe is LIE or atleast in my case..!! Thats it, I don't want your opinion to trust in Allah, believe in Allah, something good will happen etc etc. Have a nice day.