Premarital relationship and thoughts of suicide

Q: I am 24 years old and by birth a non Muslim but had relations with a Muslim boy for over 5 1/2 years. We have been planning to get married after my convertion. I believe in Allah. For these 5 1/2 years l lived like a Muslim girl. I know that both my parents will not accept us easily but I thought that his parents would support me more than mine. I tried alot. He told me to take a loan and join for the msc and in 2 years time we would get married. I listened to him and completed my msc. He promised to marry me. I did things with him because he told me that we will make everything halal after getting married. I gave him everything but I am still a virgin. Few months ago, his parents found about us and they changed him. He got married to another girl and started to a new life. He forgot about everything. He hides from me and his friends. Allah also supported and saved him. I prayed alot but Allah didnt hear my prayer. Perhaps it is because I was born a non Muslim girl. I believe and pray alot to Allah. I told his parents that I believe in Allah Amd I like to live like a Muslim girl. I asked them to please give me a chance to be a good Muslim girl. But they did not accept. Allah did not answer my duas. This boy dropped me at the last second and he told "What I did will not gave you a child so forget what happened between us and live your life with someone else. My mother does not accept you and I cant disobey my mother." I know that a mother is a great gift of Allah and Allah told us not to make your mother sad. I can also give birth to a child then I will become a mother. Why does he not think about that. He did also made a mistake and cheated on me. Why Allah is not punishing him? He used me and me and left me. I am so heart broken and feel betrayed because he used me so much. I have been crying and praying to Allah. I begged every one to please help me to become a good Muslim girl but nobody helped me. At last I'm having thoughts of committing suicide. I know that it is harram in Islam. But I dont have any athor option. He touched my body with the promise that he will marry me. I told him that its was bad thing and we are not married. I am still a virgin but my body is also important to me. I lost everything but he gets a good life. Now l prayed to Allah to take my life back. I dont want to live. If I live, I dont want to be cheated by another boy. If I tell this thing to anyone then nobody will want to marry me. What must I do?

Haraam relationship

Q: I am a girl and I have a best friend who is a guy. It’s been a few days since I started practicing Islam. I told him to do the same. He did. Now I came to know that the interaction with non-mahrams should be avoided. I tried to convince him. But I am afraid that he is new on this path and may go the wrong way if I leave him alone in the beginning. I can’t abandon him because he may move to the wrong way. I can’t stay because it is prohibited. Please tell me what should I do.

Dua to remove difficult conditions

Q: My husband is a pilot and works for an airline. The airline filed a case against him and gave him a show cause notice since he has a fake graduation degree which is true but at that time he had no other option because he had to enroll in an exam otherwise he would have waited for 2 yrs to enroll again. Now his job is at stake and its been 2 yrs and the case is still pending. Due to the show cause notice, all the privileges like free tickets has been taken away. The issue is that my husband travels alot, sometimes twice a month for 1 week but I am not able to travel frequently with him because due to the show cause notice I have to pay for a full ticket and it really makes me feel sad and I cry. I don't have kids and I want to be with my husband most of the time. My father in law is a captain and he travels all the time with my mother in law and I feel all alone. I know he made a mistake and now he realized that but this is not my fault. What dua should I read? Should I pray that my husband's case ends?

Girls living in a hostel

Q: I am an engineering student and I am currently living in the hostel. All was going well till my roommate offered prayer. Her method of offering salah was different but I did not pay much attention to this because in college, I am friends with a shia girl whose method is also differed from mine. I do not discuss this with anyone but I was told by another hostelmate that she is a "aga kahani". This made me furious. After that day I stopped using her things but I never stopped sharing mine with her. Now the problem is that we hostelmates make tea together and she is also included in our group of friends. We do not want to make her feel miserable but I asked her not to make tea for me twice.

Now, the question is that how should I behave with her as we have to share one room and I have to live with her for a long period of time.

Also, we use to eat our lunch and dinner in the same plate, is this appropiate?