Fear of getting married
Q: My parents want me to get married but I don't want to. I am 22 years old and in all these years I saw horrible fights and extra marital affairs surreal stuff like that and they always blame me for their unsuccessful marriage. I am not mentally stable. I get suicidal at times such that I can't control. If I get married, how can I take care of my children when I can't control myself?
Whenever the topic of marriage comes, it's killing me when I think about all those years of fights. I can't take any sort of torture. I am unable to convince my parents. I instead end up yelling at them which I don't want to. I do read Quran but as soon as something regarding marriage comes up, I get those attacks again. I don't know what to do. How can I get over this situation.