Nikaah & Marriage Issues

Abortion

Q: My wife is pregnant with 14 weeks but we dont want to keep this child as we have already one small child of 1 year. Should we go fot abortion? And if we do abortion then what khaffara do we have to give?

Performing a secret nikaah

Q: I want to marry a girl of my choice.. My mother and father both agreed upon this.. The girl's parents also agreed upon this.. But their will be a gap of a year as they agreed upon. But due to Islamic reasons and due to sins, we want to perform a secret nikaah to stop sins and to have the mercy of Allah SWT.. When the time comes we will perform nikaah before everyone. Pls guide me..

What to look for in a potential suitor

Q: I am really confused. Everyone says that in life you can't focus too much on beauty when it comes to a potential suitor. Then, they say "no. But you have to be attracted to him". But then if I am not attracted to anyone except for a very specific few, then "no, you're being too fussy and need to lower your expectations in life" then when I say okay, how do I lower my expectations? How do I force myself to be attracted to somebody who doesn't really match up to what I had in mind? Then they say "No. don't lower your expectations, expect the best from Allah and have faith that he'll give you what you want" then I say okay fine I expect the best. Then they show me somebody and I can't find it in my heart to have the slightest bit of attraction towards them then they say "if you don't find this person good looking you need to lower your expectations" then I ask how , "no have faith in Allah, you'll get what you want" ... so I don't know what to do. first they say expect from Allah then they say lower your expectations. Which do I do and HOW? It's not as if I'm only focusing on looks, I want piety and looks in a person and I'm not willing to compromise on either. Money is not a main focus but looks and piety are. I have never spoken to any non mahrams much in life so i feel like why should my first relationship ever be with someone that is unappealing to my eye? It's not as if I feel deserving or entitled or think that I'm so holy for not ever engaging in haraam relations but I just think it might be a disappointment to have the one relationship you ever have be with someone you just can't seem to be attracted to. Also. If I read "Rabbana Hablana Min Azwajina Wa Dhhuriyatina Qurata A'yewnew waj Alna Lil mutaqina imaama" will I get someone who I find good looking? Because it's a dua for our spouses to be the coolness of our eyes and he can only be a coolness to my eyes if I am attracted to him right? And I will only be attracted to him if he meets my expectations which means that all I have to do is read this dua and have faith and not lower my expectations right?

Responsibility of an illegitimate child

Q: I was 18 when I met my now husband...and I found out after I fell in love with him that he has a illigitimate child..he had no contact with her since birth and did not want to as the mother didn't want him to have any rifts over the child as she was to marry a man she cheated with on my husband in the past... For 16 years there was no contact and I married my husband on the grounds that this will never be a problem 1 day as I was never given a option to accept this with him or not... Furthermore for years he did not want this himself..

A few months ago after 16 years the child contacted het father and out of no where he wanted to have a relationship with her but his ex and child is not muslim and I could not bring myself to accept this...

Firstly the child isn't islam..2ndly I feel betrayed at the fact that I have to change my life for others mistakes of 16 years..my pious parents accepted this marriage on grounds that this would never come back like this...

I do feel bad as I told my husband...i cannot accept his estranged ex and child which isn't muslim in my life after so many years when now I want to start my own family and if he wants his child I have no choice but to divorce him as I cannot accept and fix a 16 year lost relationship of him and his daughter.. Am I wrong to not accept this?because I feel like I've been wronged by him and his false promise at the time of marriage..im scared Allah will punish me for stopping him and the child from having a relationship...

Please help