Nikaah & Marriage Issues

Feeling lust after unintentionally looking at one's sons private part

Q: If a woman unintentionally (accidentally) looks at the private part of her adult son without clothes by mistake and she lowers her gaze, but due to looking at the private part without clothes she feels lust inside and she feels some discharge coming out of her private part. Even though she does not have any lust for her son and she lowered her gaze as well, will it constitute hurmat musaharat?

Combatting thoughts and feelings of homosexuality

Q: I'm a 27 year old homosexual guy. My parents want me to get married but I have zero interest in girls. All my life I've never been in any kind (homo/hetro) relationship, I've never been intimate with anyone. In the last few days, due to my curiosity, I've seen many gay people living their life happily and this gave me so much pain that I can never experience the joy of true love because I know homosexuality is haraam and prohibited. If I get married to a girl, won't that be wrong for that innocent girl?

I've been battling my thoughts for the last few years and it was not easy to be untouched for 27 years in today's time where teenagers are engaged in such activities and people see you as a loser because you haven't done it yet.

I thought about suicide multiple times but that's also a major sin and also I have responsibilities towards my family as I'm the elder child and my big brother is already a rebel and my parents still haven't got over him. I can't give them another shock by saying anything.

I'm getting mentally unstable and can't see my future self living my life for me. Its hard to control the needs/urges of the body now. Every time I think about all this I get this deep pain and sorrow in my heart and tears in my eyes. I have no one to talk to about it personally. I do not want to commit either of the sins, neither can I be normal nor can I end my life. For Allah's sake, please please help me to get out of this.