Miscellaneous

Feelings of hatred for one's brother

Q: My father ordered me to respect my older brother but if my older brother insults me or yells at me, can I insult him with the same insult and use the same tone of voice. I don't respond to his abuse due to my dad's order which may make my older brother think I fear him furthering the abuse and my hatred toward him.

I feel like if I don't respond to him and the steam keeps building up in my heart and we fight one day (may Allah protect us both), one of us may end up in jail. If I could just throw some of his abuse back in his face maybe all of this corrosive hatred that I have toward him may go away. But right now I can't sit next to him due to all the hatred I have for him.

As weird as it sounds, me being able to respond to him may actually help ties of kinship because with my sister with which I fight verbally when there's a heated disagreement I feel like I couldn't feel this hatred for her in a sustained manner but with my brother I feel hate toward him just by thinking about him.

Feeling depressed over other people's wealth and comforts

Q: I am married. We are financially not fantastic with both of us working with 3 kids. We live with my parents. We bought an investment and sold it off but covid came and we could not repurchase a home. Now things are expensive, it's hard to get by even on two incomes. Family and friends all around me seem to be financially killing it, bought homes, have good jobs, can afford to send kids to good schools.

I feel resentment for ever getting married, listening to my parents and having kids. I feel anger towards my husband for not being financially settled and mapping out and striving for a better financially secure future. How can I get rid of these thoughts and feelings. I try being grateful and just working hard and praying but around me someone or another will mention their recent good job or house purchase or financial gains and I will go back to the bad thoughts.

Taubah from making gheebat (backbiting)

Q: Sometime ago I backbit and engaged in alot of idle talk about alot of people as I was not much of a practicing Muslim. Those people are not aware of my backbiting. Now I have turned back to Allah; I have repented alot and repented sincerely and realized my mistake.

It turns out that the people I used to backbite are alot since I dont remember them all can I make dua generally for all people that I backbit without taking their names or mentioning them? like "Ya Allah, forgive all the people that I backbit and raise them in ranks".

Also, will Allah Ta'ala forgive me? I am afraid if I tell those people that I backbit them it will cause some hatred in their hearts for me. So i decided not to approach them and repented sincerely.