Miscellaneous

Curses of one's mentally ill mother

Q: I have a mother who is mentally ill. I live with her and our family. My mother gives me a lot of bad duas, she makes dua to Allah that He destroys me, that I live the life of a dog, that I suffer and suffer and end up living worse than anyone. She keeps giving me bad duas everyday. She calls me evil and insults me.

I usually dont say much to her, but sometimes my 8 year old brother hits me with toys, sometimes I will tell him off, and once I hit him back (I know I shouldnt, but he wouldnt stop and he's a big boy). She tells me I'm evil and that Allah will destroy me.

I am very concerned that I end up suffering even more in life. I know the status of a mother, but I havent done anything bad to my mother. Will Allah accept these duas? I am very worried. My dad prays good duas for me.

Watching videos

Q: I watch a series called naruto in which a person is called god of shinobi (ninja). So I called him once or twice that but I still consider Allah the creator of all world. My brain convinces me that I have commited shirk even though I only worship Allah.

Repenting after earning haraam livelihood

Q: If a man who has earned his living through illicit ways not permitted in Islam as recorded in the renowned personals, including but not limited to accepting and soliciting bribes, misappropriation of public fund etc. during his entire period of service repents sincerely after he retires from Govt. service, would he be accepted by Allah, especially if he uses his ill gotten gains to sustain himself and perform all necessaries afterwards? Does the same logic apply to robbery and trickery, money lending with interest, sale of narcotics, etc.? Is wealth amassed in such a way even if one turns over a new leaf?

EFT tapping

Q: I am undergoing my therapy for anxiety, fears and phobias, guilt and other issues here in Pakistan with a trained muslim psychotherapist. He recently prescribed Me doing EFT tapping to control my anxiety and issues. I did it for few days and felt better and more in control over anxiety and low mood that was disturbing me.

He has asked me to just form a short problem statement and a simple affirmation in which there is nothing unethical, unislamic or anything which could be shirk. And while repeating these statements you tap on 9 meridian points.

I wanted to ask you if it is okay for me to continue this self help technique to feel better and have focus on positive things.

Living an Islamic lifestyle in a western environment

Q: I am a 20 year old girl living in a western country since birth. I come from a very strict cultural family from Pakistan who are very conservative in their mindset and often mix culture with Islam. Nevertheless I want to state that I do respect my parents despite our clashing mindsets. Since the last few years my father especially gets extremely angry, shouting and saying horrible irrational things about my character, threatening to pull me out of Uni etc. over ridiculously minute things such as me wearing a bit of makeup or wearing jeans etc. He uses the excuse of Islam and constantly tells me I am a terrible muslim and a disgrace because I don't have that outward image of a "perfect muslim girl" despite me knowing in my heart that I try my best to be a good muslim in my own way-I do my best to pray 5 times a day, be a good, kind person and am slowly building up my islamic knowledge.

While I understand that wearing hijab and modest clothing is fardh in islam and that it may be one of my weaknesses (and everyone has their own weaknesses), I do not dress outrageously bad (eg. show too much skin or wear anything too tight) or any different to that of most muslim women in our western society, even those who wear hijab. I know my own limits and islamically for them to force it upon me to dress like women do in my father's village is unrealistic and incorrect.

I don't mean to say i'm an amazing muslim and he is a horrible one or a horrible parent but the mentality he was raised with does not allow him to see beyond his own beliefs. For him not wearing makeup, wearing hijab and long, loose clothing, but NOT praying or reading Quran or having internal faith, is better than me doing my best to practise and be a good person but not have that "ideal" outward appearance ie. he cares more about following the norms of the society he was brought up in but uses religion as an excuse. He doesn't even attempt to understand that I have grown up in a western society, (even though he's the one who brought us here) that my thinking is more open and that he cannot compare me to women living in his village, it is just completely unrealistic.

I know how important respecting and obeying your parents is in Islam and even though my parents think I try to "hurt them" on purpose by doing these things which make them angry, I know in my heart I do not and how much it hurts me that they do not understand things from my point of view. I cannot help but react negatively at times when such arguments and incidents happen as I too feel suffocated but at the same time feel guilty as I don't know how I can live my life and please my parents without being their little puppet and doing everything as per their terms because ultimately I am an adult and I will answer to Allah myself.

I feel extremely stuck and need the opinion of someone with more islamic knowledge than me. I just want to practise my religion in my own way and at my own pace but don't want to hurt my parents either or make them feel like I have betrayed them/ disrespect them.